Why?

I just reformatted my mac last wednesday… and yesterday, my keyboard doesn’t work and the click pad thinks that i’m clicking the secondary click (right click)…

THis is the third event my mac fails. The first was when the HDD died. That was one month ago. Few weeks after that. The OSX jammed. Then now…. this. Keyboard ain’t workin properly so as the click pad. I really depend on my Mac. Especially near exam week. My exam is this coming monday, i need to revise few more stuff, especially on Film Appreciation. It sucks big time…. All the notes are in my mac. I can’t login, and all.

Sigh…. i feel like Job. His property, family, everything, was taken away when the devil tested him. And all these things and people taken from him, are so so so precious, yet he made it through….

This… is just a Macbook… i bought it second-hand… but its really really precious to me… and for it to be taken away… its like me losing a quarter of my life. Yes it’s replaceable… but i don’t have the $$$$ to replace it. sigh… talkin about money.. stupid haircut cost me 40bucks. assss… but then i planned already. but not for my mac to have the keyboard become haywire and all…

k. enough of the mac… back to study.

weird thing is… i’m typing using the keyboard now. Which functions well. LAter, after i switch it off… it will become stupid all over again. Can’t work and all. I don’t get it! sigh…

macbook, i wanna throw u away...

*i wish i could throw my macbook wall right now… seriously. I WISH. i could but i need to get another one. which i can’t afford.

The depression begins…

I may look happy, i may be funny in front of you… but i may be having a hell lots of anger deep inside, an active volcano waiting to erupt…

i’m just pissed off. THat’s all. i wanna punch people. aku nak belasah orang. am very angry…..

angry at myself actually. Just need to put it on somthing or someone (who is willing to pay for the med fees of course)

k la. i just wanna say that… people. aku nak sangat habiskan everything i’m suppose to finish. Moral of the story is, do not procrastinate. thats all.Am reminding, and telling myself… which eventually, i would end up pointing at my mac, saying that the mac rosak causes me to not do this and that and all… which is half true.

NOw exam coming. My notes are in my mac.  then, i’m suppose to hand in a donation card, which i couldn’t find! asssssssssss! GERAM SIAL! sigh… really really really am pissed off at myself. and i guess some people have seen that side of me when i get pissed off. it ain’t good. CFMF.

sigh… GOd, help me..

To do list:

Before the new semester starts… i have to:
1. Cut my hair… many complains about it.
2. Do ear piercing. Aku nak!!!
3. Get my camera’s sensor cleaned.
4. Not to fail in exam, and get at least C+ instead of failing it.
5. Change my Mac OS to Leopard.
6. To fall in love.
7. To have my room cleaned.
8. Go Genting and have fun.
9. Get myself few Tshirts from Brand Outlet.
10. Beat the crap out a guy that i hate the most for now. Damn teming fella. wait lah… wait…
11. Finish YEE09 plans.
12. BE super stress before and during exam.
13. Have fun on the 24th of July.
14. Love myself.
15. Jog, swim, and get back my 78kg weight.
16. Have kolok mee in miri.This might kill the item #15.
17. Do a music video for my brother.
18. any suggestions?

Thursday, my first photoshoot. and my Macbook kena Stroke!

Last Thursday, i did my first photoshoot, as my model,En Ai. =) will post pictures after my Mac is back from the ‘hospital’. Preeeety fun photoshoot. Experimented with lightings especially. Lights are very very crucial if you want to bring out your subject of matter in a picture. TO seperate it from the background, to bring out the details of a person,and also to give the emotions (low key, high key,etc.) i love photography class. cool funny lecturer, awesome classmates.

anyway, yeap.My mac got stroke on Friday morning,630 plus plus. CAn’t startup. Ass lah! haihyoh! i think i use it to much. Usage rate: 140% then it should be.Macbook ain’t for editing videos. Not to be switched on non-stop for more than 24hours, not to edit pictures and videos,plus using Motion(for pc, software called Adobe AFterEffects), simultaneously. owh well.

quite sad lor. but then again, i’m quite happy for caring friends who took their time and sacrificed their brunch just to go OneUtama to help me send my Mac and get my assignments printed… Thanks Jon CHU!!!! =) i owe u lots!~!!! i can’t say anything else but thank you. can’t sponsor u for now,have to pay for my MAc medical fees. =) next time next time. =)

Yea.

Timeout from reality, again~

Am doing my writing for mass media assignment.. damn bored.. gonna have a photoshoot today for photography assignment. Gonna shoot En Ai! =) one of the hot girls in college, so am doing my homework as always before a photoshoot, and i thought of asianposes.com…

yes. i know, the site doesn’t help much but.. i stumbled upon…

GIRL'S GENERATION

 

THey’re FREAGIN’ HOT! all of a sudden, orang putey ain’t that cun anymore. lol. not even Megan Fox~ 

one of their music videos, omg damn cun sial.
must watch must watch! especially for those of you who loves dancin, these girls can dance! very very very well.

*drool

These girl’s, some of them are American educated, they can speak english very well, which is very privilege them to have that.

I’ve discovered that not many people like these sorts of music. K-POP. I find it awesome. At least not much of sexual innuendo in every lines. Yes indeed got lotsa fairytale kinda love story, but at least, its ‘cleaner’ or less obscene or comfortable to listen to. They have the catchy tunes as well. So, Girl’s Generation/SNSD… sigh… *drool*

But since i just finish my film appreciation class (i still owe the lecturer-Choon Ean my movie journals), let’s talk a bit about the technicality in the production of the MV for the song titled “Gee”,which i love… damn cun sial..

. Styles & Crafts

The first 20 seconds of the video, the director uses jump cuts as the guy carries the ‘mannequin’ to the display window. Then, using at least a 1-2 second cuts, the director lessens the maximum time (cuts the shots shorter) to compliment with the ‘energy’ of the music. The director also uses a lot of dolly & sweeps in this MV. Throughout the whole video, the use of dolly and sweeps actually makes the beat of the music and the video creates a synergy (don’t even include their dance yet…drool). And also, he uses mid shots- waist to head shots to separate the solo and group singing. Mid shot of individual singing then dolly to the left/right/wherever of group doing something. there are 3 scenes in this video. 1. the store 2. the white space, and 3. the store dance floor. not breaking down the scenes where its in the store, you got the changing room.. and so on.. *lazy wanna talk more on this suddenly*

But honestly i love the music video. compare to GLAY, a japanese band doing live performance, its equally awesome. They did one concert live in Osaka and the live recording was awesome! i was amazed by the live cam directions and all. The director is one heck of a person. The editing looks very simple but it really gives the video the feel of the concert.

One of the live recordings of GLAY. 

 

 Anyway, the Girl’s Generation makes me want to go Korea… meet up with one of them, get to know, then whatever. <dream on boy…

k. time to get back to work. =) sighhhhhh…~

*sit hajok… sit…

Its not the first

.. give ten songs that could tell the most about what u feel right now as you write do this post.

1. Thinking of you- Katy Perry

2. Break Stuff- Limp Bizkit

3. What I’ve Done- Linkin Park

4. Homesick- MercyMe

5. True- Ryan Carbrera

6. Home- Hillsong

7. Love, Where Is Your Fire- Switchfoot

8. Beauty From Pain- Superchick

9. Cinta Dalam Hati- Ungu

10. Take All of Me- Hillsong United

Is it really the end?

This post, you can say its stupid~

 

Last week, one of the subjects i’m taking this semester, Film & TV, we were suppose to choose a topic to present. Be it nudity, politics, business, anything, BUT it must be related with Film & TV. The team consists of me, Gerard (Jerry Boi) and Eyvon. Awesome group it was. hehe. U got one laidback (me), Gerard (latecomer) and Eyvon (the cute one). We somehow, chose the topic, and awesome and magnificent one- FACTS vs. FICTION. wow. I don’t know why but i felt that i just dug my own grave. But i think its just me, going for such thing. I love trying something i never heard of before, such as this topic. Its interesting. =) i just can’t expect what i would stumble upon while doing research on it. I really didn’t expect anything. 

I was given the task to do on the subtopic of apocalyptic movies- 2012 which will be screened this coming November. Its about the end of the Mayan Calendar, and the cataclysmic events that would turn Earth into, a rotting planet. Burnt. Destroyed. Soupy (watery-no land). and so on… 

Me being me, fine. I’ll do it. I checked the website. Was going through it. I didn’t expect anything, just to get some information and just get it over with.But slowly as i give in my attention to the website… i start to believe in what i read… 

www.whowillsurvive2012.com

I actually questioned all the facts that were stated in the site, such as the existence of Planet X or Nibiru, the movement of the Earth’s core and all. I wouldn’t blame myself for actually had a pinch of believe in it, the Earth ain’t going better anyways. Politics here politics there, bomb here and there.

Then the Word just hits me. In the book of Revelation itself written there, many is to come; catastrophes, calamity, suffering, liars, pretenders, etc. 

I questioned myself, why in the world i actually slipped off and actually believed in such stupid idea that “the world’s ending this coming 2012!”. i wanna watch the Olympics. I want to see how will England try to ‘defeat’ China with its launch. 

The whole apocalyptic movie thing.. really is depressing. It makes  u think… what if i actually die tomorrow? What if the world ends in 15 days, 2 months, 3 years time? What am i supposed to do? These questions… i asked myself these questions. 

It reminds of the song, ‘No Tomorrow’ by Planetshalers. Now, i’ve decided to live my life, to be what i’m suppose to be, whoever that God wants me to be. Ain’t easy though. Thats life. U can never predict when u will die, when the world will end. Even Jesus doesn’t know when is His second coming, except the Father. =)

i’m glad i finish this assignment.. Depressing topic sial… lol. 

=)

VIVA LA VIDA! live like there’s no tomorrow… but usually, i’m very laidback. living the life like tomorrow never ends. sigh. k la.

 

Selamat Hari Gawai, gayu guru gerai nyamai (past edi). Garu garu asal nyamai-to alll my Iban friends.

SLowww…

I’ve been pretty slow lately… i’ve got not much progress for now… I haven’t been taking pictures because my mac has no Lightroom… i’ve been quite annoyed by the OSX .4.11. 

I got photography assignment, which is yet to complete. Got two of them. one is street photography, and the other one would be portraiture, which i plan to have En Ai as my model.. But the shots and themes that i have in my head needs lights! And it really sucks when college just can’t give a shit on the EQs… sigh.

Life right now as i’m writing this post, is really slow. Really really slow.. but in a very very good way at the playground this morning after basketball with Gal, Andrew and Chev… 

I need some sleep… i can feel fever will be coming very soon… and exam is getting closer….at the same time… i can hear the sound of other work and task callin for me in my head.. telling me not to sleep but do it…

It wasn’t that long…

It wasn’t that long ago, when i was still learning how to flirt *still learning, hehe*, still learning how to play the bass guitar properly, how i was still doing my form 3 PEKA, and so on…

 

…it wasn’t that long ago. Every Sunday, or was it Saturday afternoon, my brother Jonathan and i, would go to Airport Road Church or Canada Hill Church to practice some songs that we planned to sing as we’re gonna lead the worship during the services as we go for the trip. 

 

I was only going for a trip. A normal mission trip. It turned out to be a trip i could never ever forget… ever in my life. A life changing one.

Some of you might know what i’m talking about by now..

3 person, friend, had their full-stop that morning… 1043am, as long as i could remember. 

5th December, 2005. 

 

I’m not trying to remember the whole incident just to be emotional or whatever.Not that i can do anything about it when the whole thing just ran through my mind when i see something that reminds me of the incident..

Its back….

Thank you Mac City… though you’re kinda slow… thank you.. *sob sob*
i got it back…
MY MACCCCCCCCCC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my mac…