Like a sloppy wet kiss

Unforeseen kiss,

French kiss,

peck,

making out

.

u name it

but it ain’t love if the heart is not right.

I’ve been in situations where i got confused between love, and lust.
my lips brought out loving words, yet my heart desires one thing.

When God moved my heart, to observe and experience the way He loves His people, i didn’t realized love was not just a single sacrifice, but a sacrifice and a surrendering of self to the person you love. You breath, think, talk, move for, to, based on that person’s perception.

Total surrender.

Like the story between the pig and the chicken.

Chicken: shucks, owner wants an egg every single day, just because he likes to eat fried eggs. damn.
Pig: oh yeah, i need to give him bacon tomorrow.

The chicken sacrifice something he produce, and that’s about it. But the pig, had a commitment. He surrendered (well, rather no choice). But in the world i’m living today, love can be defined in a few words, in a few actions. Commitment is just, can be done in a few seconds like texting or calling. That’s about it. Give some cash for pocket money, to eat, that’s it. done. Break up? find another one. all the same thing again.

I live in a generation where sex is an expression, just an expression. It has no weight to anything.

I live in a generation where sex is a currency.

I live in a generation where love is just sensual.

I live in a generation where love is about getting high, and there are no such thing as lows. Although they say it, they crash when they hit it. Literally crushed.

I live in a generation of love that could be anywhere, anyone, more than one.

I live in a generation of love that said it is committed, but when its actually not.

Yet i still experience God’s love. so deep, so amazing. The deeper and worst the wounds of my heart due to the sins i did, the deeper His love goes. And its not just a one day thing, its constantly coming. Every day, there’s always something new. Like today. Every shop i needed to go, there’s always a parking right in front of it! its small, but it was amazing!.

But you really put faith, to test when you love. Believe me. Its taxing, but after that, all you feel is just beauty. You could feel beauty, no longer by seeing. its that amazing.

How shitty my situation would be, i pray that my hope will stay in Him, not on myself, or anyone.

Like a sloppy wet kiss, that’s how much He loves us.