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No heart… not today…
No one, belongs to me… that’s the least of my cares.
I maybe sad at times, and disinclined to play..
But its not bad at times… to go your own sweet way,
nobody’s arms belongs to me, no arms feels strong to me,
I admire a moon, as a moon, just a moon…
Nobody’s heart belongs to me today..
-Stacey Kent
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Silver lining
Every dark cloud has a silver lining…
But i question,
After the storm, the clouds, and the winds…
how would i be when i see it.. the silver lining…
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A Picture, A thousand words
I’ve been livin’ in KL for almost 1 and a half year already…
still far from end…
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C.a.f.f.e.i.n.e.e.s
Last Wednesday or Thursday (a week ago as of Aug 29th) , a bunch of us (Chev, Zim Sen, Sze Keong, me) went to Ampang to do a food review for Zim Sen. *Hailer hailer!* =) it took us more than an hour just to get there. The distance. But anyway, i was really expecting that this place could satisfy my hunger and just makan only lah. say, less than 20 bucks. Food testing… u need to (its a need) spend extra to try the other food. Hence, we go together so each one could order different stuff on the menu and share it.
Finding a parking was kinda difficult.
k.
So we reach there, it has this very cool looking interior. Very simple and nice.. mainly use white *as their theme*. clean. so, we looked at the menu, and i was really surprised that the food were kinda average as in, not that expensive , and not that cheap too. Just nice *for the type of food they offer*
They suggested *the mother of the owner who takes care of the place too* that we try the cappuccino, latte, the sandwich, burger, baked rice, and also the fettucine with something something i forgot.. and not to forget the spicy balls or something.
so, the food came.. OH MY GOODNESS… the nacho dip was, is , and always will be awesome..
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Trials
I’m sure we all do go through trials. Here’s something i just reflected on today… Something before i start my day later. Picture taken by myself =)
Trials, trouble, anxiety, hassle, burden, affliction, ordeal, tribulation, adversity, hardship, tragedy, trauma… or anything that makes you feel you’re tested, tempted, or resisted.
What does God do when you go through hardships and trials in life? I sometimes forgot that He’s in control.
I question His attention towards me in…
Study
Work
Spiritual life
Things that revolves around me… people… relationships… financials…
I remember having to ‘ikat perut’ and not having breakfast or lunch and waited till dinner just to cook Indomee because i only had RM8 left… went on for two days! (i’m a bad spender, i makan-ed)
I have to sit for exams that i thought i could never pass but i passed (writing for mass media)
I thought i couldn’t survive without having a girlfriend. (i survived)
I thought i was going to die when the car i was in got into an accident on my birthday. ( i survived)
I had to go The Curve and come back around 2.30 and i thought i had to begged to the taxi drivers to give a ride home. (A friend came and picked me up FOC)
My mac died, due to Hard Drive crashed… I repeatedly said in my head “this is it, you’re dead Josh. No more Mac”. (went for repair, it was upgraded to a 320GB with some important files perfectly fine)
Many trials i’ve been through… even right now… relationships, college, studies, etc. But somehow, i pulled it through.
God helped me?
Well, i believe he did. For He said that my strength comes from Him. Undying strength. I will go through more trials and it’ll get harder and harder. I want to be stronger and wiser. I WILL BE. And when i am, up there, on that high ladder, i pray that i won’t be filled by myself, but Him.
How about you? You think God was helping you when you go through your trials?
I think so.
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I remember…
“Nok joshua de?”, you called out looking for me…
I remember,
Every Christmas, the whole family would go back to the long house and just enjoy the entire Christmas with all the relatives, and yeah, just have some fun. And i really can’t wait to just see you, hoping that you would make me another toy boat. And i would destroy or burn that toy boat, i was still a kid. I would have one almost every time i return back to the longhouse from the city. Gosh, that was awesome.
I remember,
how you would bring me down to the river bank and just prepare for me a short track of ’slide’, especially when its after the rain… Me along with the other kids. I’ll be the only one with a guardian.
I remember,
the story that mom told me. When i was still probably, around 2-3, you picked up my ‘poop’, hard and looks like ’small stones’ (that’s was what mom said), and put on the TV…. I still wonder… how did you do that… and not smell a thing! I’m amazed…
I remember,
You would tell me stories to bed in Kayan… some of them, i just couldn’t understand… Really ancient Kayan language… i would ask few questions, and instead of sleeping, i would be more awake and interested on how the story goes….
I remember,
How i would pause my breathing when you talk… It kinda smells… haha. Sorry…
I remember,
How i would grumble if you and mom just couldn’t decide what snacks to buy when you want to restock snacks for your lil business back at the longhouse. I’d be grumbling and rush both of you coz i was bored to death….
I remember,
That you would tell me to study hard and all. When i was a kid… till today… a week ago…
I remember,
That you would ask mom about me, while you on the hospital bed, and me…. somewhere, around. Busy. Doing my own stuff…
I remember,
Watching you on that bed… in pain… uncomfortable… sweating…
You refused to eat, because you know it would be hard for you, or probably you just don’t want us siblings to carry you to the washroom, that you might thought that you’re a liability to us…
I was in tears watching you, seconds before i leave for the office to edit some videos…
I remember,
saying that i’ll see you again before i fly back to KL….
I didn’t.
I am sorry…
I wish i could stay longer in Miri and just spend more time with you. Be it in the hospital, or anywhere… I just wanna repay your love towards me… but i know i couldn’t repay you…ever…
Rest in peace Pon… I miss you… very much… Mom too. (i hate it when you told mom that i will hear the news when i’m kl… i just don’t like seeing or knowing that you’re giving up…. but i know… you’re tired…)
Departed on August 20th, 2009
Am in tears… heh. aHHHH!!! i want to have some french fries and get my mind off this… people, appreciate those loved ones you have that are still alive… its something that you’ve heard many times but… keep on remind yourself that they can be gone in a sec. Later, tomorrow, you just don’t know when…. sigh.. someone take me out now…
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Anger
Anger is a killing thing: it kills the man who angers, for each rage leaves him less than he had been before – it takes something from him. - Louis L’Amour
Anger and jealousy can no more bear to lose sight of their objects than love. -George Eliot
Why does anger be the choice of action… even before we just ask for explaination?
As much as i want to be upset over things, i think on whether to be angry or not more than i study for exams myself… Unless its a clear reason the reason of being angry was due to the negligence over things done over and over again. How i wish i could be angry and express it straightaway without thinking how would others would think…
Slow to anger… i try to live it in me.. live it in you, please?
Love,
The other side of myself.
To,
Me.
i feel the pain just because you get angry… and its over small matters. so how about if you just don’t get upset so fast? and think why must u be in an upset mode just to get the message across? for i, am always here, listening, learning, about you- note to self…
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Hi peeps. Went to this place called C.A.F.F.E.I.N.E.E.S in Ampang today. Gonna post up few pictures. well, depends if the editor says can post up pics on my blog. Coz the pictures are going to be used for the Hailer Food Review Section… i call this section Got Food!? *hint hint* better than just call it Food Review rite? :p
pictures will be post up after my exam tmrw! =)
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Sigh… Monday… whats with you?
or probably, whats with me? angry wei…
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